Friday, September 28, 2007

Best night sleep

Last night, I got the best night sleep I've had in months! I watched TV for a while (episodes 3-5 of season 1 of Grey's Anatomy), made some bracelets for a work craft show today, and turned in around 10.

As I'm laying down, I close my eyes, and suddenly feel the baby move! Usually it's just for a second or two- just long enough for me to know that it is the baby, and then it stops. But this time it didn't stop. This child moved for about 20 minutes straight, and continued to move as I fell asleep. I have to say, it's the most amazing feeling in the world, and I feel so incredibly lucky to be able to feel it again. I slept so well, and when I woke up, it was all I could think about. Forget about getting things ready for the craft show! I'm just so glad. I was starting to get a little nervous again, since it has been 3 weeks now since my last appointment. Now I get to rest easy for a bit, and I see my OB on Thursday.

And...when I walked into work with my stuff for the craft show (so I didn't have to lug it in from the car later- halfway is better!), one of my coworkers bought a card from me! First sale before 9am. Technically, we're not allowed to sell during the happy hour- but it's from 4-5 pm. It's not 4 yet. ;)

Happy, happy day!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Nice and relaxed.

My weekend was as perfect as you can get. I kissed Nathan and Celia goodbye as they went to Celia's gymnastics class, and I ran to the store to grab a few last minute things for their camping trip. I got a latte from Starbucks, and decided I was starving, so I hit the McD's drivethru for an egg and cheese biscuit and hash browns, which I ate while watching America's Next Top Model reruns on the Tivo. I went to my massage, which was absolutely amazing. Got home, and they had already made it to the campground. Which meant I had the house to myself!! I watched more TV, dyed some yarn, and relaxed a lot. Dinner was a cheese quesadilla, and some chips and salsa, and I relaxed on the couch while watching more ANTM. Thank goodness for MTV, who is showing all the reruns. Yes, it's a shallow and silly show, but I love it!

Sunday was more realxing, and then I met up with many of the DC bloggers in Rockville. It was a yummy brunch, and great to get to see and meet everyone!

On another note, I've never been so glad to be pregnant as I am today. The manager of my group sent out an e-mail yesterday saying that she's expecting, and is about 13 weeks along. It was completely unplanned. That makes 4 women in my department who are pregnant. It was 5, until one gave birth to twins over the weekend. At any rate, I'm very glad that I'm one of them, instead of on the side lines. And the funny thing- we're all due within a one month period. I know that I would have dealt with it, and would have been OK, had my IVF cycle not worked. But this makes life much easier, especially when every other aspect of work has been so stressful. Hopefully in the next few months, things will become clearer, and more settled, and we'll find out whether or not we have jobs after our contract is up.

Friday, September 21, 2007

It's Friday!!!

I'm so excited that it's friday!!! That means that my course is over, and I'm done teaching until June! The next course will be offered while I'm on maternity leave- so sad! It was actually really successful, and we got some really great reviews. It is always nice to hear that the class learned a lot and will be able to use some of what you taught in their research. Very cool.

And, tomorrow- I'm free!!! I get the whole day to myself! I was under the impression that Nathan and Celia would be leaving for the campground right after gymnastics, but apparently he wants to have lunch at home. Which kind if sucks, because my massage appointment is at 10:30. But that's just too bad- I'm not switching it! I will just pretend as though they're gone. Maybe go grab a nice lunch myself after my massage, or maybe not. I'll have to think about it, and see what I'm in the mood for- always the question. I am pretty sure that I'm going to do some major relaxing though! And some major beading and yarn dyeing too. I am doing a "show" at work, like a happy hour, where employees can show off their talents. We're not allowed to sell anything, but are allowed to give out business cards and make arrangements for sales after the show. So we'll see how that goes- it's next friday. Needless to say I need more bracelets, earrings, stitch markers and yarn dyed up by then. I may decide to head over and see a movie saturday night, but I'll have to see what's playing. I've never actually gone to a movie alone before, so that could be interesting if I get the nerve to do it. Not even sure if there's anything I want to see up anyways.

Hope you all have a great weekend! I'll see many of you on Sunday at the DC get to gether!!!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Busy weekend/week

Last weekend, my mom and step father drove down with a trailer filled with furniture! They brought my old bedroom set for Celia to have, and it's so great to have it again! That bed is the most comfortable bed in the world. Celia has even been sleeping better, which is a real miracle. That was most of Saturday. Sunday, I got to head over to the hospital and visit Karen, who was expecting triplets at the time. But she had them today!!! Congratulations Karen- I am just SO happy for you!! Anyway, Dmarie and I met up there, and had a really nice visit with Karen, who looked absolutely incredible. I can only hope I look that good in my last month.

It's been a long week at work so far. We have an external course again (the same one I had during my transfer, that I was on bedrest for and had to miss), so I taught yesterday and today. Fun times! I'm glad to be done. Teaching is not something I'm great at, especially when most of the people I'm teaching have PhDs, and I have a Masters. For some reason it makes me more nervous. Let's just call it insecurity. Anyway, it went OK, and I feel much better now that it's done. Tomorrow I have to give a little blurb about the work I'm doing right now, which has been a bit of a nightmare, but is definitely a "real life" experience of what we deal with day to day. That should be easy. After that I have to prepare a poster for a conference I'm heading to in San Jose in October.

Overall, I'm feeling pretty good. Emotions have been in check a bit better. Headaches gone (hopefully I didn't jinx myself there). I'm starting to get a bit more energy, and am less tired all the time. Thank goodness! This weekend I have an appointment for a prenatal massage, while hubby takes Celia on her first camping trip since she was 18 months old (and that was at a wine festival at a race track, so it doesn't count). She's excited, and I'm over the moon about getting a whole 24 hours to MYSELF!! Then, I get to head out to meet up with the DC gals for our monthly meetup. For info, go visit LJ, who has all of the details on her blog. Why can't it be friday already? ;)

Thursday, September 13, 2007

More energy please!

I'm nearly 14 weeks now, and I'm surprised at how tired I still am! When I was pregnant with Celia, it was like a switch at 12/13 weeks. I suddenly had loads of energy, no nausea, and wasn't falling asleep all the time. I'm still tired, still get queasy from tiem to time, and am exhausted. The headaches don't help that much either. I'll go a week without one, and then I go three days with one. Today was the third day, so I decided to work from home and take it easy a bit. I love getting to wear my cotton shorts and a T-shirt, work from the couch, and just relax. Definitely a good thing. Thank goodness my job gives me a secure ID so I can log in, and do everything I need to from home. Plus I have a lot of reading to do, and some slides to prepare for my class next week, and run some more scripts, and analyze some data. It will be a busy day!

On the plus side, my side business is going really well! I have sold 15 skeins of yarn in the last week and a half, and placed another wholesale order for yarn. I'm doing a table at a local "holiday shoppe" (in Damascus, if anyone is in the area!) in a month and a half, that I'm really excited about, and I want to have different weights of yarn for different potential projects. Mostly I sell sock yarn, but I want to do some more worsted weight yarn for scarves and that sort of thing. I can't wait for my order to come in so I can play with it. I also ordered what I'll need for a sock club that an online shop owner asked me to create for her. I almost fell over when I saw that! I'm excited though. I'm just so excited that people like my work. I know it's not an actual career possibility for me, but it is definitely supplementing my income, and paying for my yarn habbits. I should actually make money this year. And I plan to really keep it up after I move back to Buffalo.

I had a very odd dream last night. Some of it is a bit gross, but here it is. I was at the house where I grew up (which my parents sold about 10 years ago). My RE was there with an ultrasound machine, and I'm about 20 weeks along. He does the ultrasound with everyone there, and there are still 2 sacs, and the second one is still empty, but as big as the first sac. So he uses the dildo-cam to break the sac, and I feel fluid gush down my legs, and instantly I'm hysterically crying, thinking that I was going to lose the baby. He hugged me and assured me that I wasn't, that it was just the extra sac that he "burst", and that I should feel a lot better very quickly. And I did. Very strange.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Light The Night, 2007

Hi everyone! On Saturday, Oct 6th, I'm going to be walking in the Light The Night Walk to support the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Last year, one of my best friend's lost her 14 year old sister-in-law to Leukemia, and I'm walking in her honor. Please help me make my goal of $200!

I'll be holding a contest, for anyone who donates. What are the prizes you may ask?? Well, first off- I'll be raffeling off several skeins of handpainted yarn from my shop, in the winner's choice of colorways! Plus a few sets of stitch markers, and a few other items. Everyone who donates will be entered into the contest! So head on over to my donation page to support this great organization!

Thanks for your support!!

Sunday, September 9, 2007

hormones suck.

Seriously. I had a real bout of post partum depression when my daughter was born. It didn't get bad until she was about 7 months old, and I was not dealing well with being back at work (even though I had been back for 4 months at that point. I called my doc, and they had me go to a therapist, and take meds. I was on Lex.apro for a few years, and then switched to when we were starting to try for our second. About a year and a half ago, I went off of it (slowly, as per my doc's instructions, of course). I have been doing really well, considering the whole IF thing. I have it together, handle stress well, don't cry at the drop of a hat... Until yesterday. Yesterday, I was watching a really great movie, Shopgirl. If you haven't seen it, I recommend it- Claire Danes and Steve Martin in a wierd relationship, etc. I loved it! Until one point, and I just lost it. I started balling hysterically (I don't want to ruin the movie, but let's just say there was a part that was heartbreaking and brought back a lot of memories I hate to think about). Anyway, my husband was great, just held me and let me cry it out. Today, yet another stupid thing set me off, and I cried for 20 minutes. In front of Celia, who was doing her best to comfort me. I had completely forgotten what pregnancy hormones do to me. I like a good cry every so often. But not twice in less than 24 hours! Anyway, I hope it stops, or at least calms down a bit- it's getting annoying.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

12 week check-up

Well, according to my Dr's office, I'm 12w6days. My widget says 5 days...whatever! I'm in there somewhere. We chatted about my results from the sono, and bloodwork, and everything looks great. My thyroid is within range, as is my HemoglobinAC1. All good news! He went to listen to my heartbeat, and I mentioned how high the baby was during my sono last week, and he was surprised. He searched for it for a minute, then tilted up towards my belly button, and boom! There it was! Music to my ears. I've been walking around with a smile on my face all morning. I'm SO excited!!

And we talked briefly about delivery (he mentioned that he was on call last night, and was at the hospital for a delivery at 3am- not much fun. He pleaded with me to not deliver at 3am, to which I said- but I'm easy! I'm a scheduled C-section! He thanked me profusely, it was funny. Every so often I consider the option of a VBAC, and then I always go away from that. Not sure why, but it doesn't seem like a good option for me. I guess we'll see how it goes, and I'll do some more research and then decide.

My heart broke last night when I read Sara's post. Please go send her some love.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007


I'm so exhausted, it isn't funny anymore! Friday night, I slept funny. In the process, I pinched a nerve in my shoulder, which is connected to something in my neck, driving shooting pains up it any time I move my head. In any direction. This makes it very hard to sleep. I managed to sleep OK Saturday and Sunday nights, but last night I was up a few times. For an hour at a crack. The other annoying thing about the pain shooting up my neck is that it ends in the back of my head, causing a horrible headache. I'm just glad it's the back of my head and not the front- at least I can focus a little and have gotten work done today. Not that any of the scripts I've run have worked, but I've been trying, and troubleshooting. Fun times.

I'm really glad that I have an acupuncture appointment scheduled for tomorrow. And I get to see my OB thursday morning, for my 12 week visit (I'm officially past 12 weeks! YEAH!!). Hopefully the doppler will pick up a heartbeat this time! I can't wait to hear that again. AND, thursday we have a massage therapist coming into work, and I've signed up for my half hour. I've really missed this- but they won't touch you in your first trimester. As far as I'm concerned, 12 weeks makes me past that. Phew! I haven't actually seen her since 2 days before my transfer. She's going to be excited to see why I haven't been coming.

And on another good note, I haven't spotted in 5 days now! Nothing! I'm really glad that finally stopped. It's just scary! I think I'm finally starting to believe that this is going to happen. I refuse to let my guard down, but I'm finally beginning to accept this pregnancy. I guess the 12 week mark makes me feel a little better. But I'm still worried. Especially with the headaches I've been getting. And my blood sugar issue. I'm already sick of testing 4 times a day. My fingers are sore, and I was starting to get used to not taking all of this extra medication. At least the gly.buride doesn't upset my stomach the way that met.formin does.

That's my update. Nothing too exciting.