stressed?

So I'm off bedrest now, which was such a pain! I had to pick between being on the floor with the TV or the kitchen. I chose the TV. My hubby was good about bringing food down for me, and even came home at lunch today so I could eat and not have to break the "absolutley no stairs" rule my nurse gave me. When my husband walked in the door with lunch, I was in the bathroom, so I came out a second later and he seemed out of breath or something. I asked him what was wrong, and he said that he was stressed out. Now, he never gets stressed out. Or at least nearly never. It's interesting that he's finally now getting stressed. I've been stressed out of my mind for weeks! I'm trying to figure out if I find it amusing, or if I'm really annoyed with him. Only time will tell!

Done!

Well, that was easy! They put in 2 embryos, and both looked perfect! And, my lining was perfect! Thankfully, I was early and they took me early because if I had to wait any longer, I would have had an accident. I have such a small bladder, when they make you drink up first, it's just horrible. The one thing I always cringe at when I hear the words ultrasound and drink water spoken together.

I'll have my beta on the 11th. I'm not thinking about that yet.

confirmed

for 3:45 today. Water drinkage has begun!

impatient.

I hate waiting for the phone to ring. I always have! Now, I'm waiting for a phone call that may or nay not come, telling me that my transfer has been moved (or not). I'm trying not to stress too much but it's not easy. I had to give a 15 minute overview this morning for a course we're teaching at work, and I flew thru it in less than 10 minutes. Just couldn't stop talking. It's done, and now I have my second talk tomorrow morning (if my transfer is moved). If I am having a hard time now, the next 2 weeks are going to be horrible!!

Let there be cake!!

Today is The Great Cake Day, which is also very conveniently my 31st Birthday!! My wonderful hubby got me my favorite cake from Cold Stone Creamery, the cookies and cream cake (picture borrowed from their website). It was SO good! After a long day at work, I went to my acupuncture appointment, Carrabbas for dinner, and then had my cake!

Thanks Mel for such a fun week!! Happy Blogaversary!

day 2 report

We still have 5 embryos!
2 of them are 2-cells
3 of them are 4-cells

I have my appointment tomorrow for my transfer, BUT the nurse said that they will likely change it to a day 5 transfer. I'm surprised, but pleased. We'll see what tomorrow brings!

report.

They called earlier than I expected! Apparently of the 10 eggs, 3 were mature. They did icsi on them all (I think?), and we have 5 embryo's growing! The nurse was confused for a sec, since how can you get 5 embryos from 3 mature eggs? But she then asked if we did icsi- which explains why, apparently. She said that sometimes icsi can mature a slightly immiture egg? Doesn't make sense to me, but I'll take the 5. However I"m assuming that those 2 will not survive. I just hope now that the ones from the 3 mature eggs keep growing strong!

still store

Yesterday was spent mostly on the couch, watching chick flicks (I had Netflix'd "Because I said so" and "Catch and Release" just for that occaision. Hubby was great, and got Celia out of the house for most of the day, or at the very least kept her occupied so I could really rest. And I even cast-on a new pair of socks for myself out of this great yarn I got a few months back- it's a combo of wool and sea silk, in a pretty yellow with a hint of blue. I didn't get far, but they're really pretty!

I plan on more of the same today. The only thing I plan on doing is getting my dress once it's ready. Celia's got a birthday party at my friend's house, which hubby will take her to. He's really being so good.

I slept OK last night, woke up a few times to take some more vi.cadin. I'm annoyed with how sore I am, I was hoping not to need more than 1 or 2. Thankfully this morning is a little better, so hopefully I won't need any more. I did wake up a few times just thinking about the fert. report. I'm so nervous about what they'll tell me! I am afraid of only a few fertilizing, and them not making it to retrieval. I was really hoping that there would be a few left to freeze, but I'm really not very hopeful. Yesterday, after I got home I was talking to my mom about it all, and telling her how it hurt way more than I had expected. And that as of then, I really didn't want to go thru this again. I am not sure if I have the strength to go thru this all again. I guess that's why a lot of people take breaks inbetween cycles. I am trying so hard not to be too hopeful that this will result in a pregnancy...but at the same time, I find myself already day dreaming of it all.

It's done!

And they got 10 eggs. Not as many as I was hoping for, but I'll take them!

I'm SO sore, and am going to rest now. Thank goodness for vi.caden.

EDITED: I meant to add- why is it that every one of my comfort foods are off limits right now? they said to stay away from greasy and dairy foods. No ice cream, mac and cheese, McDonalds, pizza, or milkshake. what a bummer!

excited!

I'm really excited for tomorrow! Last night, I actually took some time for myself, and went to a "stamp camp". My friend Lisa got me into rubber stamping cards about 2 years ago, and last night was a cardmaking night at a The Angel Company distributor's house. It was so much fun, and we made some great cards!

While I was out, my friend Rachel called to say that she'd still be able to come watch Celia while we're at the retrieval tomorrow. I was really bummed that I got such an early slot, and she lives in Fredericksburg, so it was too much to ask her to drive up tomorrow morning. I offered for her to stay in the guest room, and said that she could bring her dog (I knew her hubby was going to visit a friend for the weekend, which would leave dog alone). So tonight, we'll have a beagle in the house. I love dogs! And it will be such a good distraction to have her here- we'll probably play some Karaoke Revolution, hang out, and relax. I'm looking forward to spending some time with her. I think the hardest thing is not having family nearby to lean on at a time like this, but when friends like Rachel and Lisa are around, it makes all the difference. ;)

Got it!

I've got my slot for Saturday morning!

And I"ve gotten permisison to work from home tomorrow so I can lay down comfortably on the couch. Sitting upright all day today was NOT fun. I'm definitley starting to get very uncomfortable.

Wow!

I'm totally impressed! I just got back from my monitoring appt, and I have some great follicles! She said before she got started that we needed at least 3 over 18 to be able to trigger today (which I mentioned being hopeful for so I didn't have to risk missing my friend's wedding). Right ovary- she counded 3 over 20, and a few more over 18. The left, which has been really sluggish so far (though we weren't sure if it was because it's sluggish or because she can't measure it well because it's been pretty hard to find most times. She found it pretty quickly, and got a few measurements- all over 18 except for 2, which were over 16! She sang the "today is trigger day" song to me (which was so sweet) while she was measuring, and then I sat with a nurse and got "trigger day instructions". Now I get to wait by the phone, and hope my appt. for friday is 12 or later, so I can go to my appointment to have my bridesmaid dress fitted!

Right now I"m way too excited to be nervous about the surgery, but I'm sure that by tonight when I have a time, and know what's going on, I'll be really freaked. But for now, I'm sipping my Caramel Machiatto, eating my blueberry scone, and smiling.

good friends

Good friends are so hard to come by! Especially as you get older and more involved in your lives. I just received this e-mail from one of my close friends. I was in her wedding a few months back (she and her hubby actually met at our wedding, and they were both in our wedding party...yup- the bridesmaid and best man ended up hooking up. Anyway, Rachel and I met years in college, we were roommates for a while, which was a BAD idea. After the second semester, we were really were on each other's nerves, and I ended up getting an RA job, so I moved out (and then met my hubby when I was his RA...sad, yes).

Anwyay- I just got this e-mail, and I started crying immediately. It's amazing to me, how after all this time, we were able to repair the damage done in college, and remain so close. And the fact that she and her hubby live in Fredericksburg, VA, makes it even better. She's just the best.

"Hi Shelby,

Ok, so I was thinking about it... and I'm so excited for you!!!! See, I know that you've been wanting another child for like forever, and now I think it can really happen... AND I'M SO EXCITED! I know that you will be a great mother again... and I have to admit, I loved your icecream cravings when I was down to visit. I'll be here for you any time you need me!!!

Ok, talk to you later.

:) Rachel"

Naps are good!

I ended up heading home around 11:45 to take a nap. I feel OK now, just still tired. But it helped, and I've finally been able to start reading a few papers I've needed to read. Journal articles can be so dry sometimes!

Just got a message from my nurse:
estrogen is 1008, lining is 14.8 (she said it's thick enough for possible implantation- yay!), and I stay on the same dose tonight and go back in tomorrow morning.

Off to read more about Genomic Empowerment. Here's hoping I don't fall asleep again!

Tired!

Last night, I went to the DC Get together over at Cheesecake Factory. There were 9 of us there, and we had such a blast! I was completely shocked when I realized it was after 10 when we left. It was really nice to meet everyone, and get to chat about what we're all going through in an audience where I don't have to explain every little thing. I got a lot of insight on what to expect over the next few week or so too, which was SO helpful! I'm looking forward to the next get together!

This morning when the alarm went over, I almost cried! I was so exhausted! And that hasn't gone away at all. Usually a shower helps a lot- but not today! I'm completely dragging. And I'm sore (my ovaries ache a bit), and just want to lay down. I notice the twinges a lot more when I'm sitting.

So my monitoring appointment went OK this morning. The largest follicle is now 18.8, and there were a handfull over 16, and loads between 12-15. We'll see how things go, but trigger will either be tomorrow or friday. I'm really, really, really hoping for tomorrow, to minimize the chances of missing my friend's wedding. Kind of crappy for the matron of honor not to make it.

Now I have to try to get some work done. I'm not sure how long I"ll last without going home for a nap. A nap sounds really good right now.

that was fast!

I already got the call from my nurse. My estrogen was 666, and I stay on the same dose today and go in again tomorrow. I must have written down the wrong number, since they called my hubby's cell phone. When he said what the estrogen was, I held my breath. Again with the superstition!! Thankfully, all seems to be moving along well. Phew! Now I can relax, and make it through the rest of my work day and be productive! I hope!

2 or 3 more days

First- thanks for all of the comments I received yesterday! It really made my day! I'm feeling much better today, thanks. Luckily, I knew right away that I was getting a UTI, so I got to the doctor within 2 hours, and got on antibiotics right away. Today is MUCH better.

I just got back from my monitoring appointment. The biggest one was 16.2, and many between 13 and 16. Total count of 14 on the left, and 20 on the right. The RE who was there this morning said probably 2, maybe 3 more days of stims, which is good.I'm hoping for 2, so that we won't run into any issues with my friend's wedding. And I'm hoping that my estrogen is cooperating too. I'll find out later!

I'm really looking forward to the DC Get Together this evening at 7:30PM, at the Cheesecake Factory over at White Flint mall. If you want to come, head over to LJ's blog and let her know you're coming! That way there will be a big enough table for everyone. I'm so looking forward to meeting everyone!!!

$#%*!

And this morning, I wake up to a raging UTI. I just spent the last 2 hours in my GPs office waiting to be seen. Then- I can't pee when they want a sample! I'm so pissed. At least I have the perscription, and will hopefully feel better fast. Just annother annoying thing to deal with today. I'll be heading into work in a few minutes, to sit all day at my computer. Sitting is the LAST thing I want to do right now. ;(

Still crabby.

Crappy mood.

I have no idea why, but today I'm in such a crappy mood! I woke up fine, went off to get my bloodwork and ultrasound done, stopped in at the pharmacy on my way out (it's in the same building as my RE), and got refills on my gon.al F and meno.pur, and came home. The second I walk in the door, the hubby informs me that he wants to take our daughter for a walk. Now, this is fine with me since I have work to make up today (since I was out much of last week with a sick kid). The problem comes in when I had mentioned before that I was going to make breakfast. Now it has to be rushed so they can get going. Again, it's fine, so we have cereal. Then, my hubby decides to call his dad and wish him a happy father's day- again, not a problem...until he's on the phone for an hour. Celia's getting restless to go on the walk, and keeps interrupting my attempt at finishing up some powerpoint presentations for a few lectures I'm (maybe) giving in a week and a half. Finally, I call my dad, then my mom/step father, and he's STILL on the phone. I'm banging around, trying to hint to him to GET OFF THE PHONE. Of course, after he gets off, he decides to start the laundry. Again not a problem, just prolonging things, when it's supposed to get up to 90 today. To me a morning walk is before 10. Not after 11. It's already 82 out. I'm really aggrivated because I wanted to take him out for lunch today...so we'll see when they get back.

Just got the call from the REs office, and all is good! My estrogen was at 292, and they want me to stay on the same dose of Gon.al F and Meno.pur for 2 more nights, and be back tuesday for another check. Fun times. I'm just so tired, crabby. I hope my mood gets better fast, I really hate being bitchy.

Wierd.

I went in for my second monitoring appointment this morning. She measured 6 different folicles, and all are between 11 and 13.2 mm. I just heard back from my blood results, and my estrogen level dropped a little. It was 183, and today it was 146. It looks like the lower dose of Meno.pur did it's job. The doc apparently wants to see my level higher, so I'm doubling my Gon.al F to 150, and the Meno.pur is back up to 75 for today, then I get to go back again tomorrow morning, bright and early, to see what it does to my levels. I just want to keep moving forward, which seems to be happening.

Now I"m going to lay down again. I woke up this morning with a wicked headache, which tylenol doesn't seem to be helping. Must rest.

slightly high.

My estrogen level was 183, which is a little higher than they like to see. So, now I drop down to 50 units of Meno.pur, and stay at the 75 of go.nal F. I go back in saturday and see what they say. I'll be seriously annoyed if I have to stop after 5 days of stims. My fingers are crossed that the drop in meno.pur really helps a lot.

waiting by the phone!

I think the worst part of my monitoring appointments is waiting by the phone for my estrogen results. I went in this morning, and everything looked really good, about 12-15 great looking folicles on each side, which the RE seemed really happy with. He noticed my badge from work, and asked me all about what I was working on, so that was kind of interesting. He was really impressed when I told him that the last work we published was in Science magazine". Kind of fun! He said that we'll know more later as to how many of the follicles are actually active, once we get the estrogen results in. My fingers are crossed that they aren't too high. And he did have me schedule the next monitoring appt. for saturday morning. Fun times!

2 down...

several more to go! I've been on stims for 2 days, and it's been pretty good so far! Thankfully I usually tolerate drugs pretty well (unless I'm allergic to them, of course). No welts, no major bruising, just aches for a minute after the meno.pur shot. But the Go.nal F is pretty painless, though I'm sure that's partially due to only taking 75 units of each. I did burst into tears at one point yesterday, but I was reading a book where the main character died, so it was absolutely upsetting! I've been home the last 2 days (daughter has a nasty virus), so I've really been able to take it easy, and work from home. Tomorrow I get an ultrasound/bloodwork to check on follicle development. I'm nervous to see how it goes...I really want that Estrogen level to stay nice and LOW. High enough to show that the stims are working, but not high enough to stop things. I'm ready to roll!

On another note- I want to give a shout out to the Braces Bunch! I've gotten a few notes in the mail so far, and they really are fabulous! Thanks JJ, Lean and Kate! Kate even sent a recipe that I can't wait to try. Maybe the first thing I'll bake in my new oven! I'm hoping to sit down tonight or tomorrow and write a few myself. ;)

All clear!

I finally got a message after my acupuncture appointment! My estrogen was at like 32! I have 20 tiny follicles on each ovary, so we'll see how it goes! I just took my first meno.pur and gon.al F injections, each at 75 units. Slow and steady wins the race? We'll see. I'm optimistic, and very curious to see how things go.

moving ahead?

I was able to get into my REs office this morning for my Lu.pron evaluation! I was psyched, and I suppose it doesn't hurt that my office is across the street from the REs office. Gotta love location!
Anyways, I'm not really a superstitious person, but sometimes it can be. The last 3 lu.pron evaluations, the bloodwork was taken from the same chair. This time, I went to a different chair. Could be a good sign? Then, I went straight in for the ultrasound, with the tech AND my RE! And while they had trouble finding my left ovary, they did, and there were no obvious cysts on either side. Dr. C said that things looked good, and even if the estrogen is high again, that we'll most likely just go ahead and get started. I'm afraid to jinx it...but tonight I may be giving myself my first stims!

Yes!!

Was what I was screaming in the bathroom about an hour ago. AF just got here, and I'm so excited! I'll call tomorrow to schedule my Lu.pron eval, which will hopefully be tomorrow or tuesday. I just want to get started!! Provided, my Estrogen level is OK, of course. But we'll see. I'm optimistic, and am really hoping that things will all work out this time.

The good thing... if it all works out OK, I"ll be able to make my course and the wedding with no problems at all. I hope this works...I really hope this works.

wow.

I just re-read my post from yesterday and I"m still not sure who that person was?! I am feeling a million times better today, and am not nearly as angry about everything. I suppose it comes and goes, but usually rears its ugly head in the evenings right before bed. Thankfully it hasn't been as present lately, and yesterday really shocked me. I guess it's something I'll have to face until I bring another child home (whether it be from an airport or the hospital).

Last night was really fantastic. My hubby and I haven't gone out together in quite some time, so we really had fun. First we went to our dinner at Melting Pot and got their "big night out" deal with the cheese fondue, salads, meat, and dessert fondue for 2, all for 1 price. It was amazing, though I didn't eat nearly as much as I usually do. I've been trying to eat healthier, and apparently I can't put away as much food as I could before. I'm not noticing much weight loss, but a few pounds are gone and I'll take them.

I had to call yesterday and order my 3rd pack of Lu.pron, since I'll take my last shot of the second pack on monday. The pharmacy is open today/tomorrrow until noon, so I'll swing by and pick it up. It's so convenient that the pharmacy is in the same building as my RE. I also finally called my financial person to find out what my insurance company considers a "cycle". In case some of the Lu.pron evaluations won't be covered, or if starting the lupron and using the Ovi.drel means a wasted cycle. We shall see what they say on monday.

Now I'm going to enjoy a nice and quiet weekend!! I'm so excited!

I ovulated! And an anger rant...

As I expected, the phone call came tuesday afternoon to inform me that I did ovulate! Now all I'm doing is waiting for AF to show up, and then we can attempt to get started again. My fingers are all crossed that there are no more cysts and that my E2 level is good on day 2.

I've had a long week. Work has been...long. Lots of meetings, telling us what to expect, that some of our group are leaving, that some are staying...and they really want us to stick around. There are things for us to do, and they don't want to lose us. We'll see how things happen. I have yet another meeting this afternoon with more management. But then...I have my acupuncture appointment, AND I have a friend's hubby coming by to babysit so hubby and I can go out for the evening. It's been a few months, and we really need to get out. The plan is to hit Melting Pot for dinner, then maybe see a movie after dinner if there is time. Ocean's 13 is just out, and I can't wait to see it. I really love Las Vegas, and that obsession only got solidified more after my first visit there in January. I wish I could go back soon!

Anyway, it's been an OK week. Lots of things to keep me busy. Yesterday afternoon after listening to a few knitting podcasts, and doing some surfing over at one of my favorite online shops (The Loopy Ewe, I splurged and put in an order...for 5 skeins of sock yarn. I know it's going to be coming soon, and I'll be instantly happy then. It should come in while AF is on the verge, so that will be a nice distraction. Yarn always makes me happy.

I've been pretty angry this week. Angry about my infertility, angry with myself for being angry, angry at others for not understanding the anger... Just plain angry. I still feel like this is all a nightmare. Like I'm going to wake up any minute, and find myself healthy, and pregnant. I did it once, why can't it just happen again?! What changed in the last 4 years that would have effected my hubby's count?? NOTHING. What changed in my cycles? Nothing. How the hell did it happen before, exactly 4 years ago?? CD1 for that cycle was June 1, 2003...and when I tested on June 27th, it was positive, as clear as day. I remember walking into my office that morning, beaming, and being so excited. Will I ever get to feel that way again? Will I ever see the 2 pink lines again? I just want to jump up and down, point at my daughter and say "But it happened before?! Why not now?!". I'm a good mom, Celia is happy, healthy, and incredible. I can't help but wonder if I'm being punnished for something? Maybe for not christening my daughter like my MIL wanted me to (hello- I'm jewish..not practicing, but still!). I don't know! I know it sounds completely irrational, but right now- I'm mad. I'm sure it will pass, but for now, I'm going to continue being angry. Sometimes life just isn't fair! I wish it was OK for a grown woman to sit, cry, and pound her fists against a pillow and saying "but it's not fair!".

Ok...rant over. Sorry for being so negative today. I'm glad the weekend is here.

June's DC get together!!

The next DC meet-up has been scheduled!! Tuesday, June 19th, we'll be at the Cheesecake Factory over at White Flint mall! I'm really looking forward to meeting everyone! I'm really excited to meet the new folks, and see Lindsay again!!

If you're in the DC area, and would like to join us, drop me a comment! This is going to be FUN!!

again with the bloodwork

Just as the bruise on my left arm healed, I had to go in for bloodwork this morning to make sure I ovulated. I can tell you 100% that I did (or else the cramps about 40 hours after the Ovi.drel were in my imagination), so at least waiting for this phone call this afternoon won't be too bad. It's nice that I have a work lunch to go to (birthday celebrations), so that should be fun. The only downside is that we're going for vietnameise food, which I really don't care for. Hopefully they'll have something I can eat.

I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much for this cycle. When my Estrogen was too high last time, and then the cysts grew, I was just so stressed out! And disappointed. I really want it to work out this time, and at least get to start to stim. The timing for this cycle really sucks, but I still really want things to go right. If I have to miss the lectures I'm giving, my best friend's wedding and our vacation, I'll be fine with that.

On the plus side, I went across the street for lunch yesterday because I had forgotten to pack a lunch after waiting for the stove to arrive, and I ran into another woman in my group. We walked across, and were talking about the changes going on at work. She confided in me that she's expecting, but it was really early, and she had had an early miscarriage last month, so she really wasn't telling people yet. We were just talking about whether she was leaving, and that would be one huge reason to stay (short term disability, FMLA, sick/vacation time). At any rate, I wasn't at all upset. I was really thrilled for her! Maybe a tad bit jealous, but other than that, I was really fine. I guess I'm really coming to terms with everything. And I think being open about it (many of my co-workers now what's going on, as do my family and friends), is really helping me. I don't have to worry about hiding things, and lying (which I don't do well at all, and get really stressed about).

My acupuncture went very well yesterday. I felt incredible during and after, and slept very well last night. I could have slept all morning if it wasn't for my 8am bloodwork appointment. I really like this woman! And she gave me 2 coupons to give to friends for a free consult/first treatment. Very cool! Not that i'm sure who to give them too, but I'll see if I can find anyone. I already tried my hubby, but he's really skeptical, so I doubt that will happen.

And I"m really excited for this friday! My and my hubby's birthdays are both in June (25th and 29th). So, before our cycle got postponed, my friends had been on call to watch Celia on weekends when we may have had the Egg retrieval and embryo transfer. They also tried to get us to go out before then, but timing never worked. Since we're on hold for a bit, they came back and said that we need to go out, that they will watch Celia any time, and to pick the day! So it's this friday, and we're going out for an amazing dinner at the Melting Pot. I love this place, the food is awesome, and it's a great place to go celebrate. I'm thinking every 2ww should be spent this way: lots of acupuncture, a massage (thursday at work), lunches out, dinner out with the hubby at a favorite (expensive) place, buy a new stove, and buy a ton of undyed sock yarn that I can dye up, and buy a pair of perscription sunglasses (I"ve been wanting some for years!)... Yeah. If I do this every 2ww, we'd be in trouble! But at least it's been good, and is helping to keep my mind off the upcoming cycle. I feel good, lower in stress, and ready to start up again! This is a really, really good thing! Hmm...maybe next 2ww can come the new refridgerator? What do you think honey?! ;) More likely will to be to paint the guest room. And maybe the kitchen. For some reason, painting a room really makes me happy.

My girl.

Last night, as we were having ice cream cones for dessert, my husband and I were talking about random stuff. The word "sister" was in there somewhere. My darling daughter pouts at me, and says "I need a sister". Then she looks at us again, and says "I really want a sister............AND a brother!!". I almost choked on my ice cream! Nathan and I were both hysterical. We know that multiples is a real risk, but we've decided that if we are lucky enough to have blasts, that we'll only put 1 in. I really wanted 2, but he after a lot of discussion, I caved and agreed to only put 1 in. Twins would be an amazing blessing, and I stand by that. If we end up doing a day 3 transfer, they can put in as many as they want and I'll be secretly hoping for twins. OK- not so secretly since the hubby reads this blog...but I'd be a little hopeful. It was just so funny that she said that in the way she did. And adorable. She really does want a sibling (or at least yesterday she did...it seems to change day to day), and I really hope we get to give her one.

Still feeling really good after the Acupuncture. I'm tired, but I've been tired since I started the Lu.pron. I'm hoping for a good nap today. After we go buy a new stove. Long story...but strawberry jam overboiling and burning on the stove top was involved. Needless to say, it's not coming clean (I think the glass is scarred or something), and it's the front big burner...so I'm going to get a new stove! Yeah!

Much better!

Yesterday I ovulated! Exactly 40 hours after I had my Ovi.drel injection. I was SO excited! Though it was iwierd to have

Then today, I had my first acupuncture appointment. I must say, I was completely surprised at how well it went! I was kind of nervous, and very skeptical. But after I left and drove home, I felt amazing! My head was clear, and I was so patient. I think this is going to be a really good thing. I can't wait to go back on Monday! Twice a week for now, which is going to be money very well spent!

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. It's going to be nice, quiet, and we have absolutely NO plans! Yeah!!